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title: I'm so happy I'm like a little bug on coffee beans~~ That is the song I sang while jumping about when I found out that I got accepted into The Young Co. I have been having holidays from school these last two weeks and I have been having a great time! I've gone back to work at Ben and Jerry's, celebrated Halloween, modeled for Runwaybelle (www.runwaybelle.livejournal.com), went night cycling, attended Word again, met up with friends passed my BTT, and got into the Young Co! Life has been really good and I've been really happy with how everything is. I'm basically like a little bug on coffee beans!~~ I am also planning TPJC's Post Prom with Dzul at Supperclub. It'll be on December 9th so I hope that everyone can make it! We have booked the White Room just for us, so you can invite your friends to come down and party together. The details are up on Facebook already. Tickets are $15. So pencil in the dates and get ready to party people! But of course, study first and get through A Levels first. To all my friends taking A Levels next week, I wish you guys all the best. Everything that you all have been working for is finally here, so please do yourselves justice! I will be rooting and praying for all of you. :) Lastly, I hope that my weird friend Raj gets better soon. :)     Oh yes! Runwaybelle provided me with a really nice black dress and jacket. This is the jacket and you can match it with almost anything. So if you like it, visit www.runwaybelle.livejournal.com to check out more! |
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title: My first love This week, I met a fellow TSDian graduate. We talked about many things, having one underlying commonality that connected us together. The fact that we have been through the same torture of putting a grade on the love for theater. My experience with theater almost falls short of being horrifying. Despite it being the only thing that I love as much as the people around me, withdrawal symptoms come far and fast. The only thing is, I don't have a nicotine patch. Not yet at least. A recent article I read talks about how digital technology makes breaking up so much easier to do nowadays. Photos in digital format just require a click of a button to send them to digital hell. People can be deleted with a click of 'Remove from friends'. Erasing every semblance of who they once to you has become so much easier. But this process doesn't necessarily make the occurrence any more easy to go through or any less painful. I believed that a cathartic feeling would arise after seeing those faces being deleted away into my trash folder. This feeling, however, eluded me. After what seems like almost a year, the emotions are pretty much the same, but only to a lesser intensity than before. Maybe it's because I'm so close to being back to theater and performing that an unprecedented set of emotions swell inside. Eradication from my memory was not as infallible as I thought. Regardless of which, a good friend once told me, God doesn't want us to live with regrets or in the past. We've got to learn from it and move on. Taking it as a lesson learnt, I would probably say that this is my first and probably hardest break up I'll ever experience. Unconventional, but still attainable. |
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title: What to be done Happiness is so subjective. What defines happiness for someone doesn't mean the same for another. There probably isn't any set of clear guidelines that will say you're happy right? What makes me happy I wonder? Right now, I'm very happy. To be able to come home everyday to my Mom and Sis and have them around and do what I like to do. Will removing myself from the picture to do what I presume is happiness make me happier? It's so subjective. I may not need it at that point in time. I need to stop over-thinking things and just live in the moment. Today is a gift. That's why it's called the 'present'. |
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title: Man in the mirror This past week has been amazing. I did so many things that I couldn't do before during my F1 and exam period. I went to the gym, went for long runs, met up with close friends, attended Lynnshan's church Uth, attended service and so much more. Right now, as I'm thinking about what to blog about my past week, I find it harder to express myself then expressing my admiration for certain books. That's interesting. I'm a pretty guarded person, as a result, I don't like sharing many things about myself with people. It's not a bad thing, neither is it good. I guess it's one of those things in life that are just there and is not a problem till someone doesn't want it around anymore. So, I attended Uth with Lynnshan on Saturday night, which was nice. I finally found the time to attend her church! The meals before and after the service was really nice, eating, talking and meeting new people. A few of my many hobbies. :) Saturday was filled with activities for God, which I believe was long overdue. I had a steamboat lunch at Steph's place with and some students from China for the program 'Meals @ Home'. It's a program for host families to have meals at their homes with foreign students to make them feel warm and fuzzy inside. I helped prepare the food and helped to wash up afterwards. I don't usually take pictures unless my other friends want to so I don't have any pictures of Saturday. I guess I'm old fashioned like that. Lunch was followed by fruits and long talks with the students. It was interesting to know more about their lives and the problems that they face in school. I attended Saturday's service @ TCT because I had an audition in the morning today. I am glad that I made that decision because the guest pastor was amazing! Pastor Dishan Wickramartatne is the Senior Pastor of the People's Church Assembly of God in Colombo Sri Lanka. He did a sermon on the topic 'Can God depend on you?' I really felt touched by God's word when he preached because I felt that it's a fundamental question in a relationship with someone. Can that person depend on you? Often in our relationship with God, we neglect Him and only expect Him to be there for us. But when He needs us to do His work, are we there for Him? That's basically the gist of it. I guess that I've always taken my life for granted and never really thanked God for everything good that I have. It's always easy to count the bad things, but if I tried, the blessings that I have are literally uncountable. It's time to stop whining and count my blessings and thank God for them. :) |
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title: My latest reads This post exam period has been extremely luxurious to me. Unlike the other JC1s, I am not plagued by the woes of PW and MT. Thus, I have a lot of free time on my hands. The category of time that is far and few in my life. As a result, I have been occupying my time with many things. I've picked up driving, drumming, acting and work again. All which I have stopped doing at certain points to concentrate on my studies. Other than all that, I have been reading and writing and thinking, a lot. Collectively, all these activities make my time not so free, but I'm a workaholic, I can't help it. :) Anyways, I have read these 3 books from Malcolm Gladwell that I think are worth mentioning. I read his third book 'Outliers: The story of success' when I bought it from Heathrow Airport in London. I fell in love with it and went out to buy his first two books. Not really for light reading, his books are jam packed with information, case studies and statistics. They talk about social epidemics, success stories, metacognition, and a lot more. Basically, what Gladwell does is that he dissects issues and explores the reasons for their occurrences. One particularly memorable issue that he tackled in 'The Tipping Point' is the epidemic of teenage smoking. Many campaigns and public health education seminars have been conducted to warn teens and young adults about the harm of smoking, but to little avail. He takes this issue from a completely obscure angle and identifies certain possible reasons for this result, injecting fresh insight that I found extremely invigorating. It's difficult to remember everything that was mentioned because it is filled to the brim with information. But I still highly enjoy reading his books regardless of this fact. Today, at Changi Airport, I saw his fourth book 'What the dog saw', and I was so tempted to buy it. It cost about 30 dollars. Being the impulsive shopper and poor manager of my own finances that I am, I almost picked it up right away and made it mine. But thankfully, a phone call to my mother sobered me up to the dire situation of my bank account. Thus, I have promised myself to find some work and buy that book. :)     Malcolm Gladwell Other than 'What the dog saw', I'm going to save up to buy 'The Undercover Economist' by Tim Harford and 'The Last Lecture' by Randy Pausch. :)   I am currently reading 'Veronika decides to die' by Paulo Coelho. The secret is out. I'm a geek.  |
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title: Solitary battle As we walk through the long passageways back home, we become disembodied shells walking by. One by one the people pass us by, just as lost and empty as we are. Slaves to the world we seem, but I say slaves to ourselves. Our needs, our wants and our desires. What seems so easy is so lost and disillusioned. The solitary man thrives, in the solitude of others. But the truth of it all, we all become one of them. The one who we said we'd never be, we become. Thus, the sphere of who we are engulfs us, eating us alive. We are alone. We cannot win this fight. |
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title: Day by day Day by day, I learn more and more. I thank God for everything He's given me. Amen. :) |
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title: Snapshot of ironic sympathy It all started with one word, and maybe two. Love and filial piety. Now let's flash forward to a scene in a bus in Batam. Two Westernized almost half American teenagers sitting in a bus on a guided tour listening to an extremely loud and bodacious man more than 3 times my age singing songs in dialect. That was my rendezvous this weekend. I just came back from a 2D1N trip to Batam with my Mom and Sis. It was a painful yet somewhat interesting experience. I loved spending time with my family. But it was also a period in which I listened to almost 500 songs, watched 1 movie, finished half my book and may have permanently damaged my neck for sleeping in an awkward position too long. Perhaps it is coz I am not used to the idea of going on a guided tour or traveling with a big group of unfamiliar people. I didn't realize what I signed up for when I said yes. Something like marriage. Haha. It wasn't all too bad though. The meals were fantastic! Almost fit for a king! Lunch on Saturday was interesting. Somebody approached me to talk about how fortunate we were by looking at all the people living in the Kampongs. This was after we took an air conditioned bus there, had an exquisite lunch and were now walking down a road in the Kampong, some with a beer in hand. I felt like we were people walking through an exhibit, looking and judging and momentarily feeling fortunate that we were born where we were and no where else. I did not give her the answer we wanted. I retorted that the false sympathy displayed is only contextual and nothing substantial. I'm not entirely apathetic to the people's plight. But I am saying that it's another to walk through, feign sympathy and feel good leaving. Nothing was given, neither did anybody receive anything. We then go back to the previous scene in the bus. I was literally bored out of my mind to the extent that I wanted to scratch my eyes out. My sister said it would be gouge. I replied that gouging would be too quick and easy. Scratching them out would give me something to do. Thank God for technology and loud ear phones that gave us something to keep our minds from leaving our bodies. Out of 4 stops that we made at different venues, we only alighted at 1. It wasn't all that bad though. I really really enjoyed spending time with my Mother and sister. It was finally some time we spent together without the distractions of our phones, computers or other necessary evils of today's 21st century. The people there weren't my kind of crowd, but they were very nice and generous people. I can't say the same for all though, but that's another story. I think my Mother could have done just as well with my absence than with my presence. I feel extremely guilty for being the sulky, angst-ridden teen that I was on the trip. I have a trait that propels me to speak my mind most of the time. Often tactlessly with family. I wish that I could be a better daughter sometimes, to complement the wonderful mother that she is. However, I do the best I can within my emotional capacity. Overall, the trip was alright. It would have been better if I could buy the booze I wanted. Apparently, you've got to leave Singapore for more than 48 hours before you can buy alcohol, including beer. So, if you've got nowhere to go, take a few planes around the world for more than 48 hours and come back. We'll see what they say then. |
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title: 'Cloud Nine' Disappointment. I should never let it eat me away. When you get bumped off cloud nine, you have to climb back up. After all, clouds are only made of water vapor. I must have faith and believe. |
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title: FAME I watched Fame the musical with Lynnshan, Matthew and Hong Xiang on Friday night after promos. It wasn't the best movie around, but it was a good attempt, and very entertaining. I am truly inspired by this movie. To work hard for my dreams and never give up. =) |
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